A new year, a new beginning but
somehow everything still appears the same. And yet still very different. Change,
at times, seems like an illusion. Almost like an oasis in a desert, only it is
not that but just a mirage. But then again change is also the only constant in
life. Everything changes, whether for better or for worse is something which is
debatable. It is all a matter of take. Whether we look towards the ending or anticipate
a new beginning, that very perception. The cliched example being of a glass half
full or half empty. Or, maybe both?
Does the New Year make you more hopeful
about everything? Does something as important as how you look at building a rapport
also get stroked with a magic wand of promise and positivity with a new
beginning? Well, it doesn't really for me. While some changes do take place,
there are parts of you that never do, like how you protect your feelings from insensitive
people around you. And once you have that all worked out, that change becomes a
permanent feature in you. So a change and then not much of a change again.
Once a believer in only the good in
people, today you might look for the oddities, the wrongs, just to be a step or
two ahead. It happened to me and no amount of optimism for the New Year has
been able to change that. You analyze, you weigh, you remain skeptical and then
gradually open up if need be. And what better way of doing that than just being
prepared for it. Not an ideal situation I agree but that’s a defense mechanism
that builds up over the years, sometimes even unknown to you. It stays dormant
and then suddenly raises its head like a serpent to guard you. And maybe being cynical
about an unknown person or situation is not a bad thing after all. I must admit
I’m distrustful and suspicious about the motives of people I don’t know about,
being hurt once or twice by close friends will do that to you. It changes you
and maybe it’s a good thing. I know for a fact that it helps me protect myself
and my emotions. I’m sure you have your own mechanisms as well. Life teaches you
that and it keeps changing; evolving rather. And navigating through the delusions
of life, I think it’s imperative you have one. But then again is it really a
change or just a long lost part of your subconscious reacting to stimulus?
I think you and I are the sum of
all the changes and the constants in us. Sometimes the constants are the
changes that have taken place over years while the changes are just the
constants seen in a different light altogether. But be what it may, the fact is
New Year or not certain things remain unaffected by it all.
